Happy Belated 4th of July! I trust everyone had a fantastic time celebrating with friends and family. I feel so blessed to still be in the United States of America and am truly thankful for the freedoms that we have here. Thank you to all those who have served in the military and all the families who allowed their children to voluntarily serve our country. Bless them for their sacrifices. My sense of freedom is heightened as I prepare to leave the country. I’m leaving for my Western Samoa missions outreach today and will be gone for three weeks. I cannot believe how time flies. I can truthfully say that I am excited now, I really wasn’t as of two days ago, but I’m on track now. I have been in a fog of craziness this last month, but as of this morning I have had some break through because I finally stopped everything and asked God for help. To sum up the last month in a few words- “a blur of happiness and stress.” It all meshed together and I lacked clarity, but I can see clearly now. All I have to say now is, “DANG! I’m Blessed!”
As most of you know I celebrated my 30th birthday this last month. I was all about making this birthday special because past birthdays consist of dinner with my parents or a few friends. In fact last year I barely had any friends to invite to dinner for my birthday. It’s always a busy and stressful time with school ending and report cards and graduations and parties. I was determined to make this birthday I would never forget. For my actual birthday I planned to go to luau with my roommates and then I would plan something BIG when school was over. So I used all my Hawaiian air miles and bought myself a ticket to Kauai. My roommate had a friend who lived there and so we had a place to stay. I was super excited about this trip thinking it would make me remember my 30th, but the funny thing is my 30th was memorable and completely out of my control. What I am learning is that although you can plan your life, it is better to plan to be surprised. —
A view from a hike in Kaua’i
“There are no Luau’s on Friday!” I heard this at least three times from people after I told them what I would be doing for my birthday. This didn’t deter me because I trusted my roommate Crystal who is part of performing arts at the university and is friends with the people who put together all the luaus on the island. Crystal was planning my birthday and I totally trusted her. Each time someone told me that there was no way I would be attending a luau on Friday I was able to argue my way to get them to concede that fact. Little did I know that someone behind me was motioning them to shut up about it so they didn’t ruin the surprise. I thought I was good at arguing! I was too stressed with finishing report cards to look further into those comments. The funny thing is that those people where telling the truth, there are no luau’s on Friday. They where the only ones not lying to me…a secret plan was taking place…and I was completely clueless.
My students during the last week of school! FUN!
My roommates and I were getting ready for this supposed luau. Everyone was taking a long time, but it wasn’t too unusual. I was standing in the kitchen waiting on my roommates, one who inexplicably had a “broken” dress and another who needed more eye makeup on, when there was a knock at the door. (I see now they were procrastinating.) I opened the door and dressed all-snazzy was Chris Lieto (a pro triathlete). He says to me “I hear someone’s having a birthday,” as he puts a lei over me. As he hugs me I’m looking over his shoulder for his wife, but then he says he is our chauffer. I’m wondering why we need a chauffer to the luau, when I notice a white Mercedes Benz in the driveway and a red carpet with flower pedals lining the path. Just go with it I thought…Chris Lieto is your chauffer….now you don’t have to drive. We get in the car and I’m still a bit taken back and confused. When we leave we turn right, when left would be much faster, but I hold my tongue because it isn’t polite to be passenger seat driver, especially to a celebrity. As we drive up a road that leads to nowhere I finally ask, “What are we doing?” Chris says we are picking my friend Pam up. Now, Pam had already told me she was out of town for my birthday, but again I decide to just go with it. I notice we don’t have room in the car, but my roommates assure me they will squeeze her in. I know she is friends with Chris so I think she just wanted to be chauffeured too. We pull up to her house and that’s when I notice the flower pedals on the doorstop. My mind is starting to process it all at this time and I remember all the cars I just saw and now I’m putting it together. I open the door and a crowd of at least 40 people shout out “surprise.” I stood halfway behind the door to hide my embarrassed face.
This is my Surprised face!
My roommates and our “chauffeur”
As they sing “Happy Birthday” to me I try to smile and not be awkward even though I’m thinking of another way to hide. I try to take in all the people as I stand there and they take pictures. Wow, I think, all these people from different walks of my life here all together. People who bike and do triathlons with me, people from the school, friends I’ve met along the way, people of all ages united to say happy birthday to me. I’m overwhelmed with the fact that I had met 90% of the people within the last year. A flood of gratitude overwhelmed me as I reminisced about how I could barely find people to celebrate with me a year ago. God has provided so many people who care about me in less than a year. I truthfully am not super close with many of them, but I want to be. They are all amazing people. I was just so blessed that they would take time out of their busy schedules to lie to me for weeks and then surprise me like this. All of this was going through my head when the crowd parts and there walking towards me were my parents. They flew here for my birthday! Oh my goodness, what a shock. I have watched the video of my reaction since and after my eyes got huge and my mouth opened wide I made an about face and walked out the door. When reality hit I walked back in with tears in my eyes totally crying because I couldn’t cope with the idea that I was so loved.
Tears of Joy to see my parents
The party was epic with amazing food, people from different walks of life joining together and chatting it up, and dancing all night long. I made a fool of myself and enjoyed every second on the dance floor. It was the best birthday ever. Everyone who came contributed to providing me with a Vitamix (a horse powered blender) that I could only dream of having before. I even received other presents and tons of books. I was inundated all night with gift after gift after gift. Thank you to PAM MILLER who put it all together. She really knows how to throw a party and she blessed my socks off! Thank you JOHN MILLER for your hospitality. Thank you to everyone who had a part in the birthday of the year. I am truly touched and forever grateful for the love that I received! May my 3rd decade be full of love and gratitude, just like it started.
Me & Pam (the mastermind who threw it all together and spent a month lying to me!)
All my peeps!
I had one more week of school after that party and it was super difficult to fit everything in. I had report cards, a week left with my students, my parents here, and summer knocking at my door. I don’t know quite how it all got done, but it was a week of minimal sleep for sure. I had a great time with my parents though. It was a blessing to spend quality time with them since I barely saw them when I was home in April. If you know my parents then you know they are easy to please, so they had a great time. A few days after my parents left I left for Kaua’i…my original birthday bash. It felt almost ridiculous to go on this trip after having such a blow-out birthday bash, but the trip was exactly what I needed…perspective and rest from the business of life. The trip was such a blessing because although I spent money on food, housing was with friends. Even the adventures we took were either free or minimal in price because of the people we knew. Well actually, I didn’t know the people, my roommate did. I know them now though…so thank you Carmel Legacy and Nathan Teixeira for an unforgettable trip in Kaua’i. We got all the hook-ups such as a boat trip up the NaPali Coast, exclusive hikes to waterfalls, and even a bonfire on the beach with Bethany Hamilton (pro surfer whose story is remade in movie SOUL SURFER).
My friends jumping for joy in Kaua’i
We hiked down to a waterfall, despite the many signs that gave warning!
We swam in a cave where Pirates of Caribbean was filmed.
We hiked to exclusive beaches!
I had time to think there and the fog of business lifted a bit, but when I returned that fog returned because I only had a week to prepare for Samoa. Samoa had not been on my radar at all, and now all the sudden I have a list of things to do a mile long. My dad tried to give me advice about saying that these things were all things I “WANT” to do as apposed to “HAVE” to do. This change in mindset helped, but those things did not magically take care of themselves. I found myself worried about getting LICE and sleeping outdoors for three weeks amongst the bats and hairy spiders. I really don’t want to wake up to a bat on my face! I was also fretting over the fact that our food at the base in Samoa was going to be white bread and processed meat, if any protein, and no vegetables. It was a reminder of Costa Rica all over again. The nightmare of being sick all the time and basically being malnourished was dreadful. I was also remembering how the culture of Central America was relationship oriented and that people sat around and talked for hours. This is exactly like Samoa, time moves slow, and relationship –“TALKING” as apposed to “DOING” is key. My independence and need to be alone is going to be challenged. Then I started thinking of why we are even going. I wasn’t fully supported financially, is this to further imply that I wasn’t listening to God about going? I am not prepared! All these thoughts and doubts fogged my mind and made it difficult to think. Our entire Samoa team was back together again, and although that brought unity I was still shaky. We had meetings each morning to prepare and as we met I felt blah…no excitement, more stress and worry. Finally, a night ago my outreach leader Kris called me out, she has a gift of discernment. She told me that I needed to be proactive and change this funk, not just wait for it to work itself out. She challenged me to ask God for help and just stop again, freeze the business, and seek Him first.
Me & my mom…I love you very much!
I woke up this morning and it was just what the doctor ordered. This is what I learned….and maybe this might help you if you find yourself where I was. Resting in the Lord is not dependent on your external circumstances at all, but on your relationship with God Himself. Jesus never worried and was never anxious, because His purpose was never to accomplish His own plans, but to fulfill God’s plans. I’ve been fretting over my plans, my ideas of how Samoa will be, and my fears. Fretting rises from our determination to have our own way. I learned that all my fretting and worrying is caused by my planning without God. I’ve been planning my life and asking God to bless it instead of asking God what to do first. Once I stopped and prayed the worries seized and I know that things will be great, truly. Samoa is going to be an adventure! I am actually excited about it all, the good, bad, and ugly. God is going to do amazing things through my team in Samoa and through me. My plans will never amount to God’s plans and so I fully surrender to Him and trust that He will show up in Samoa and transform the people we work with and continue to transform me. I’m energized to see all that we do. I’ve also learned that being grateful will pull you at of any funk. By remembering how overwhelmed with love I was on my birthday I can never feel alone. By remembering how God has provided for all my needs I cannot stress over food, money, or relationships. The fog is lifted by being intentional to thank God for all your blessings.
MY SAMOA TEAM
Kris, Me, Jo
Katrina, Judy, *Emily, *Jocelyn
(*Students of LCCY)
I leave in a few hours, and then reality will hit for sure. We are bringing over seven bins of school supplies and are ready to teach the teachers about our math, bible, phonics, and handwriting curriculum. We are prepared to run kids camps. I am super excited to just color with the kids…coloring is my favorite pastimes…something I can do for hours, which is probably what I will do. I am honestly not sure of the plan, but I plan to be surprised and what more can I ask for really? If you think of me over the next few weeks, please keep me in your prayers. Other than the basics of health and team unity, I really just ask that you pray that I continue to seek God, love God, and love others. Pray God gives me a heart for the Samoan people. Thank you all for your love and support. I’m truly overwhelmed with your love!